To get up, to linger, to walk to the refrigerator, to open, to close it, to drink a cup of coffee, to walk back, to look at the watch, to stare in the mirror, to stare at one’s skin, to resist the staring, to slowly move, to get dressed, to remain at the mirror, to see one’s eyes, to close a door, to walk down the stairs, to open a door, to step out, to feel the cold, to walk along the city, to turn left, to turn right, to feel the rain, to not care, to enter.
To feel the warmth, to take off one’s coat, to withstand the gazes, to look at the watch, to smile, to order, to talk, to seem interested, to ask questions, to recognize one’s drink, to take the wine-glass, to direct it to one’s mouth, to take a sip, to feel the cold inside, to taste the smooth berries, to repeat, to look intently at people, to hardly smile, to want to leave, to put down the glass, to chat, to put on the coat, to walk, to open the door.
To hear a “Hello”, to turn around, to recognize him, to smile, to say hello, to feel his discomfort, to be irritated, to be aware of the person next to him, to remember her, to be puzzled, to not comprehend, to ask questions, to hear answers, to smile, to feel discomfort, to slowly comprehend, to remember her, to go numb, to recall his photos of her, to freeze, to recollect his stories of her, to feel no sensation, to remember the time of these events, to reveal something that both knew long ago, to feel muted, to reveal her in their lives, to nod.
To open the door, to go outside, to feel the night upon oneself, to feel the anger, to fully realize the weight, to look across the street, to be outraged, to have lifted a secret, to feel reconfirmed, to feel unsatisfied, to look into the sky, to look at the walls of the city, to hear them scream, to cross the street, to turn left, to go up the hill.
